I want to move out.
Have my own place. A room or a pad or something.
Somewhere new and far from all inaccurate preconceived notions that resurface everytime tempers rise or hormones rage.
There'll be no food prepared and laundry won't be done unless I do it myself but I think that's a small price to pay in order to regain self-worth, right?
Pasok sa isang tenga, labas sa kabila... hanggang saan kaya ang threshold ko? Hmmm...

Monosyllabic Girl

Monosyllabic Girl. That is my superhero name. I have the ability to blurt out monosyllabic answers in reply to any remark you make. My instincts, very much advanced as compared to the normal female, react to your presence by activating my automatic freeze-up system -- disabling coherent thought currents, creating an effect in me that may be likened to Piper Haliwell's time-stopping power. My super sonic hearing and 360-degree eyesight make picking up information about you with a velocity faster than that of a speeding bullet...


With great power comes great liability. Sheesh.


... It's not easy to be me....

Instances Undefined

There are thousands of words in the English language that may be used to accurately, specifically and colorfully describe different kinds of situations encountered by humans in their interaction with one another, yet there remain to be instances, moments that even a wide array of words cannot capture. So what happens is these situations remain as they are, just things that happen but cannot be properly explained... just emotions felt but are just left there, hanging loosely about in the air around, air that appears to be charged with something like joy and contentment... but then again, after being in the midst of all that, you're never quite sure. And at the rate things have been going, you never will be. They say actions speak louder than words. Up to some point they are right. But what they left out of that well-known line is this one fact: Actions may speak louder than words, yes. But however "loud" they may get, they don't say it all. Words will definitely have to come into play, to set things straight, to confirm, to assure and reassure... to complete. And until that time comes, one is left to appreciate those undefined moments for what they are -- brief interactions that linger with you and then after a while forget about... until the next instance.

Deep in Middlesex 1

The answer to that very malicious question in your mind right now dear reader is a big, bold NO.

But the the title is effective for its intriguing qualities, right?

To those who would like to know (and to those who'd rather not but are still reading on and technically made the choice to know), I am currently absorbed in reading Middlesex -- Pulitzer Prize winner, authored by Jeffrey Eugenides, and gift-of-dear-Santa Friend Desh to moi last Christmas. And it is partly the reason why I sound like this. Because Eugenides is brilliant (which has been my YM status more than once the past month) and because his writing style jives compatibly with mine. Which brings me to this post. And to the realization that I have once again broken a promise to my dear bloggie baby. The new year has started and it is just my first post.

Who is to blame? Or, to excuse myself from the inaction, what is? I'd like to enumerate a few culprits: 1) the HOLIDAYS, and all the frenzy and parties and activities that come with it; 2) the EARTHQUAKE in TAIWAN -- which left internet cafes (which I actually went to in order to blog but became a disappointment) with super slow and at times ZERO connections; and 3) the ************ -- which I cannot mention since I'd be in effect admitting to something that shouldn't be done in that place and may put my future in jeopardy (hahahaha).

In the brief interval of a fortnight, my life's lease had been extended. Forgive the drama. You're listening to someone who thought her rollercoaster-riding days were over but has just been proclaimed to be in possession of an exceedingly healthy heart! The slow heart rate finding really worried me. But thank God that's okay. Now I can push through with this year's plans.

For I have mentally listed some things that I want to accomplish within the year...

Kainan, Kwentuhan, Kulitan, at Quote-an sa Kaarawan

Una sa lahat... HAPPY BIRTHDAY ULI TIDOY!!!!! Yehey!

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Quotable Quotes:

I.

I don't care about his heart!

(for guys in general, referring to a particular *toot*)


II.

Chill lang, chill.

(pertaining to the taong-grasa philosophy that should be imbibed especially when one is stressed. in fairness, it actually makes sense. hehehe.)


III.

Pagkatapos ba naman ng nangyare dun sa isa nilang kasama, shempre self-defense na yun!

(in response sa katanungang sa tingin niyo ba self-defense talaga yung nangyare sa Tony Leviste incident)


IV.

" ____________(fill in the blanks).... basta magbayad kayo ng buwis!"

(be all and end all ni NEDA girl na may personal mission na hanapin kung sinu-sino ba talaga yung 85% na hindi nagbabayad ng buwis sa Pilipinas)


V.

Gusto ko ng trabaho na hindi ako mag-iisip.

(MA student, researcher, proposal-maker, and above all else, faxing professional)


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Ngayon pa lang buo na ang linggo ko. :D