Hakuna Matata what a wonderful phrase... (but rarely actualized)

Ay, ayoko na pala. Pano na ito? Howell. Bahala na. Tingin ko naman di matutuloy eh (wahaha, nega). Keri lang. Let's see...

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Just came back from the beach! Yay! But sadly, ako lang ata ang hindi tinablan ng araw sa amin. How sad. Howell.

Potipot Island was relaxing. Napakasecluded at di pa kasi tainted ng commercialization kaya ang sarap lang tumambay at humiga sa sarong at magbasa at magbabad sa tubig. Ang tahimik e (not counting the annoying people who brought loud music which for a few minutes destroyed the serene and laid back atmosphere of the place), magandang setting pangmuni-muni. I love the seemingly "Castaways" group picture that Papa UL took of us while waiting for the sun to set. Parang authentic kase eh, hehe. People need to go to places like that every once in a while.


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Malinaw na. Totoo na. Go na. No turning back. :D


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Napagtanto ko dahil sa pagpunta sa recent trip to Zambales na:

1) Magsubscribe na sa Metro Magazine -- Wala, hooked na ako sa Metro. Favorite magazine ko na talaga ito. (Pero mejo masama pa ren ang loob ko na gagastos ako ng P120 para sa magazine. Sheesh.)

2) Gusto ko na rin ng iPod ko -- Sarap makinig sa music. Chaka parang ang fun kung abot-kamay mo lang ang iPod kung gusto mong magdrama at i-play ang soundtrack ng buhay mo. Hahaha. (Currently playing on my imaginary iPod: Love Song for No One. Hahahaha!)

3) Ang tiyaga naming gumala -- Grabe friends, totoo di ba? Commutean ito, pero keri lang, makagala lang! Hahahaha.

4) Ako ang pinakaHINDI camwhore sa amin -- I've got the least number of pictures! Kahit bilangin niyo pa! Hahaha. While ang pinakacamwhore award ay contest between lags and mags. Hahaha.

5) Magpapapayat pa ako -- Para ready to go go go to ******* na ito! (Baka mausog eh, chaka na pag sigurado na. Hahahaha.)

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I think I have actually begun to come to terms with the transition I am soon to undergo. Matagal lang talaga akong magprocess at matagal lang talagang magsink-in saken ang mga bagay-bagay in general. (Duh, may mga realization nga ako about issues two years ago na ngayon ngayon ko lang naiisip eh. Kamusta naman ang kabagalan di ba??? So this is relatively very fast.) Pero yeap, I am getting accustomed to the idea. Slowly but surely. :)


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Currently poring over The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Here's a line from the book that I like: Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday. Got me thinking... That, plus Arvon's RENT soundtrack (specifically the songs Another Day and Seasons of Love).

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Not all who wander are lost. -- J.R.R. Tolkien

State of Mind: Congested (too much data per second)

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No periods yet. Ellipses yes, but not periods.

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I just realized that I've recently done something I never would have thought I'd do... and it's actually FUN. :D Exciting even, the 'bahala na si Batman' kind of thrill and anticipation. I should be doing this more often. Ang boring ren kase pag lagi na lang planado at napag-isipan ang lahat ng bagay. Sabi nga sa Blink (Malcolm Gladwell ata), we have to thin slice and only pay attention to the most important details and issues kase we make decisions faster and better that way. Sana nga totoo yun di ba? Hehe.

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I love Cebu Pacific! Palawan, here we come! Whee!!!! :D

What does one do when one knows that time is almost up?

ANSWER: Cherish every moment. Make the most of time left. Instead of dreading the end, make sure that each remaining day is maximized and lived to the fullest.

It's sad sometimes. One only gets to appreciate what one has only when it will soon be taken away from you.

What's with the Hold Up???

I am not sure what the answer to that question is but what's certain is it's hard to let go. Especially of things that are up to your control letting go of. It doesn't have to be a happy thing or a memorable experience... it can even be unpleasant. The thing is letting go is never easy. Period. I now kinda get why certain people find it difficult to get out of abusive relationships. And what I am in right now is certainly far from something bad like that. It's okay... Honestly, I already have an affinity to it, as opposed to when I started. Which sort of complicates matters. Although I know that the only person complicating matters is myself and my cowardice of moving on and up and towards the direction I think I want to head for. When you're all cozy and at home with your dvds and lots of chocolate, isn't it quite a hassle drag your butt off the couch, dress up and go on a blind date with someone that you think you might like and that you even had your friend set you up with? What, with being unsure if you're going to click and have fun or it'll just be a waste of your time?

So... that's it. I have settled and established a comfort zone. And frankly, I'm scared. Of what? Of realizing in the end that I should never have left in the first place.

I seriously have to resolve this ASAP.