a slice of chocolate caKE with everything on it

because life's like chocolate cake: it's only either very sweet or bittersweet

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Anong gusto mo maging pag laki mo???

Noong bata ako ang naaalala kong unang sagot ko dyan sa tanong na yan ay ARCHAEOLOGIST. O di ba?! Bata palang nerdox na! Hahaha. (di ako nerd pala pipol, baka lang magassume kayo na ganun nga ako. mabasa lang akong tao. hehe). Yan ay pagkatapos kong mabasa ang Children's Encyclopedia Volume 1. Sumunod dyan, gusto ko namang maging ASTRONAUT (pramis, di talaga ako nerdox. maniwala kayo sa akin!). Yan ay matapos kong mabasa ang Children's Encyclopedia Volume 6. Pre-school ako niyan.

Grade School time naman. Ginusto ko maging TEACHER -- yan ay pagkatapos kong magkaroon ng napakabait at napakagaling na guro sa katauhan ni Teacher Nel (hi teacher Nel! sana mabasa mo ito!). Tapos, for two weeks, ginusto ko maging LAWYER. Ito, di ko alam kung pagkatapos ng ano ko napagdesisyunan. Basta, bigla na lang, isang araw, naisip kong maging lawyer. Yun na yun. Kaya siguro bigla-bigla ren ang pagka-unthink ko sa pagiging ganun.

Nung hayskul ko naman napagtanto na gusto ko maging DOKTOR. Dahil ba ito sa second-year bio class? Hmm... maaari mo na ring masabing ganun. Kase kaya ko naman napanood ang movie ni Hugh Grant na Extreme Measures nung gabi/umagang yun ay dahil hindi ako natulog dahil nag-aaral ako para sa bio finals eh. At pagkatapos kong mapanood yung pelikulang yun, ginusto ko nang maging NEUROSURGEON.

Nung college ako, aba ang galing ko. Di ko inisip kung anung gusto ko maging. E ngayon, tapos na ako, may nagtatanong nanaman kung anu nga ba ang gusto ko maging pag laki ko...

Kailangan ko na malalaman yan in two days time. Kaya tanungin niyo uli ako after two days. Buti na lang di ako contestant sa Little Miss Philippines, kundi baka nagcommercial na't lahat wala pa rin akong maisagot sa tanong na yan. Tito, Vic, and Joey, in two days po masasagot ko na yan. Pramis.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

The One with the 100th

Trying to make it sound like a title from an episode of FRIENDS.

Up until I began thinking about blogging today, I always thought that my momentuous 100th post would be jovial. But no, it was lucky enough to fall on a relatively bad day. Okay, I won't blame the day. Sorry day, you are not at fault here. You're just convenient to blame.

My chocoholicsm is kicking in. Ate four brownie fudge cookies already. Ready to down three more. So much for jogging today.

I want to read Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone again.

And hug my favorite pillow.

Thank God for comfort stuff. And for Donald and Des who are my favorite people right now.



I am looking forward to a better day in dreamland.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

On Grey's Blog

Having a lot of free me time and net time led me to the website of one of the shows that has recently made it to my favorites list: Grey's Anatomy. Maggie told me about the blog that the episode writers' of Grey's keep updated and started reading... and I got hooked! I am halfway through reading the episode blog entries in chronological order, only backwards, and I get more excited about watching season 2 after every entry.

Oh, I love great writers. I love the way the writers of the show analyze every little thing they incorporate into it, of trying to create the perfect story and the perfect mix of cases to mirror the feelings and the emotions that the characters have. I love the way they could act like gods, in the sense that they can make a character do whatever they want him/her to do but still remain human and faithful to what should happen and not what one wants to happen. Because they're something like "parents" to the characters -- they don't want to see their characters get hurt (because they get hurt too) but they allow them to since they know that if they don't, they wouldn't learn; they wouldn't grow.

One episode writer mentioned that in Grey's, they're very big on double-meaning and metaphors. I AM big on double-meaning and metaphors. I guess that's why I love the show so much. Plus the fact that it is about doctors and I so wanted to be one before. And, of course, the huge, huge bonus that is Dr. McDreamy. :D

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Wonderful Food Animes, Pinoy Soaps, and Koreanovelas

Nowadays, the tv is some kind of my bestfriend. It's with me late in the morning (because i wake up late, hehe) till early in the morning (because i sleep late). Here are some of the shows that my "bestfriend" and I love watching:

Food anime is my new "thing" right now. Yakitate Japan! is the best! Kazuma appears to be a great baker. I want to taste Japan No. 22! And Japan No. 2 as well! Ang kukulit ng mga characters kase rin eh... nakakatuwa. Tapos meron pang isang food anime , sa HERO channel naman. Mr. Ajiko. Laban-laban din, dito naman sa pagluluto. Maihahalintulad ang mga palabas na ito sa IRON CHEF, kaso cartoons nga lang at maraming back story sa mga nagsisipaglaban-laban. :D Ang saya manood eh! At tatakamin ka ren dahil mukha ngang masarap yung pagkain! At in fairness, ang hihirap ng mga pinapagawang challenges sa kanila ah. Gumawa ba naman ng tinapay na walang asin o asukal?! Hyper!

Gusto ko rin ng Pinoy Soaps! Peyborit ko ngayon ang Bituing Walang Ningning (from now on to be referred to as BWN)! Ang ganda ng soap na yun talaga. Ang galing ng pagmodify nila sa story. Down factor para sa soap na yun na alam na ng mga tao basically kung ano mangyayare sa mga characters pero ang galing na na-pull off nila in such a way na kahit na ganun nga, na alam mo na, panonoorin at susubaybayan mo pa ren. Astig. In fairness, maiksi ang attention span ng mga tao ah, kaya feat na naging ganun ang kinalabasan ng BWN. Tapos ang galing pa ng casting. Parang swak na swak sa mga actors and actresses yung mga role nila. Bagay na bagay kay Sarah Geronimo yung role na Dorina na super die-hard fan ni Lavinia. Tas ang galing ren ng pagkagawa sa character ni Lavinia Arguelles, the kontrabida, kase di lang sha pinalabas na purely evil. Parang pinakita ren kung bakit sha nagkaganun, dahil na-p-pressure lang din sha sa nanay niya kaya kahit na masama sha you kinda have sympathy for her too. Pati si Dominic Ochoa, ang effective na kontrabida!!! Ang sarap tirisin, hahaha! Basta, okay na okay ang BWN... see for yourself. Inyo ring subaybayan. :D

At shempre, to cap my tv night, it has to end with MY GIRL!!! The Koreans have done it again! Winner na winner talaga itong koreanovela na ito, wahahahaha! Lalo na ngayon unti-unti nang nabubuo ang elemento ng love quadrangle sa istorya, hahaha! If you want something light and kilig and heart-warming, this is it! At kung gusto niyo rin na makakita ng gwapo at kacrush-crush na lalaki bago ka matulog sa gabi, ito ang tamang palabas na mapanood! (JULIAN!!!! Wahahaha!)

Hay, madaling araw nanaman... bukas uli bestpren. We shall watch again! ;p

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Seasons Greetings

My aunt has an out-of-the country (I think) meeting over the weekend. Which means I wouldn't have net access then. :c That's why I'm here, typing away right now... trying to substitute weekend net time to.. NOW! But honestly, I'm not in the mood to blab.

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It seems to be the season for many things. Back-to-School (hi brave law school and MA friends! and undergrad friends too ;p ) season, Employment season (myself still unincluded), First-Sweldo-Libre Season (whoo, i love my generous and very-considerate-to-the-still-unemployed friends! hahaha!), Break-Up season (:C). For me, it is currently In-House season. Quite self-explanatory. But it's weird because... (can't believe i'm actually typing this) I enjoy doing household chores. Seriously. Not only is it good preparation for future family life (wahahaha!), it's also great exercise! Hahaha. My tita would be thrilled if she ever got to read this post of mine.




* pagbigyan na ang tila pa-cute at alam-mo-nang-wala-na-talagang-maisip-na-matinong-title na title ng post na ito *

Monday, June 12, 2006

Hayayay, Yayayayayay, Yayayayayay, Yayayayay...

The title is supposed to be sung to the tune of Don Romantiko. Wala lang.

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It's one thing that you get attracted to someone because of striking good looks or because of that certain "dating" and it's another thing when you're captivated through intellect. The latter lasts longer in my case.

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Literature, and the world in general, would lack life and luster without metaphors, double-meanings, allusions, overtones, and all the other figures of speech. Sure, everything would seem more clear given that whatever it is that has to be said must be relayed in a straightforward manner. But then again that would be... boring. If it worked like that, the color red would just be the color red and nothing else. It wouldn't stand for love or war or luck... it would be just a word pertaining to one particular color.

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Symbolism breathes soul into words that otherwise would have been just a group of letters organized in a way that they could form a concrete thought.

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Hey, I want to acknowledge your writing and say how amazed I always am after reading something of yours. There. Start a blog, please?

Monday, June 05, 2006

"Hidden Hinhin" and other short stories

Ang fickle ng kapatid ko. Nagdadalawang-isip kung mag-U-UP sha. At yan ay pagkatapos naming maglakad-lakad buong araw sa ka-UPhan para iprocess ang paglipat niya. Kamusta naman di ba?! Grabe, ewan ko ba dun. Kung ako noon ay sinawimpalad na di pumasa ng UP, super lahat ng means para makalipat doon the next year gagawin ko talaga. Dream school ko eh. Pero sha mukang hindi niya dream school. Ewan ko sa kanya. Sana malinawagan na sha kung saan niya talaga gusto. Para di masasayang ang pagod ng mga binti ko.

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Nararamdaman kong may magandang naidudulot ang aking pananatili sa bahay palagi... parang feeling ko ngayon na lang uli ako talagang napirmi sa bahay. As in in the truest sense, ah. Ngayon na lang uli ako up-to-date sa mga pangyayari dito... kasi naman aminado naman ako, lagi naman kasi akong wala. Laging may ginagawa kung saang lupalop. Basta, okay na pakiramdam 'to. Parang reconnecting, ganun.

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Minsan talaga di maiiwasan na may mga bagay na ma-t-take for granted ka sa pang araw-araw na buhay... Kaya ngayong naalala ko na ganyan nga, nagpapasalamat ako sa lahat ng mga bagay na meron ako ngayon na kadalasan ay tine-take for granted ko. Tenk u por ol dat, Lord.

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Eksena sa Ecosoc Tambayan kanina:


KE: (addressed sa mga ecosocers sa tambayan)
Heyah! Papakilala ko sa inyo kapatid ko, si Joanne. Mag-U-UP na sha e.

daldalan galore with Ecosocers... after a few minutes...


JO: (mejo tumahimik ng konti tapos looking puzzled...)
KE, ang hinhin ng kapatid mo... ganyan ba talaga sha lagi o ngayon lang dahil bago mga taong kasama niya?

KE: (nagets and implication) So anu naman ang implication nun Jo?!

OTHER ECOSOCERS: (halakhak ng malakas)

After a few hours, sa may OUR...

KE: (nakita si mikoy at kats) KATS! MIKOY!

KATS AND MIKOY: Uy! Hi!

KE: Mikoy, kapatid ko pala, si Joanne.

KATS: (na nasa tamabayan a few hours ago...sabi kay Mikoy) Ang hinhin nung kapatid niya, noh?


YUN NA YUN EH. Fine.

So goodbye pag-i-illusion na meron akong pinoproject na dalagang pilipina image, ano?! Pero I object! May kahinhinan kaya ako sa katawan! It's there, somewhere, hidden deep inside... hehehe. ;P

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Still a Bum

Self-explanatory.

And that's after the confusion post. Well, I'm still confused. So I didn't go for it in the end. Well, not yet. There's a defer-to-next-training option which I have decided to take for the meantime. Excellent.

But I feel even more "bummer". My siblings are starting school tomorrow. And they seem to be all independent enough and don't need my assistance whatsoever on their first day. I volunteered to accompany them to school. And I'm talking about 3 siblings, 3 different schools here... and they all declined. And this includes a brother of mine who's entering a new high school and is going to commute going there. I should be happy that we all turned out self-sufficient. Well, I am. This is just probably because I have a lot of free time nowadays.

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My sister passed UP! Well, I've known that for sometime already but now she's transferring for sure. I think I'm even more excited for her than she is for herself, hehe. It's just that I had such a great time in UP... and I'm excited for her to have a great time there too. :D

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Confusion at its Peak

Okay. Now that I am faced with something tangible, this job hunt thing is made even more confusing. And the fact that I have to give a decision about it in 30 or so hours is adding greatly to the pressure. I sure wish I did yoga or any of the other mind-clearing, meditating stuff that people engage in. Or that I were a kalesa horse or a race horse (para mas sosyal, haha) so that I'd have eye guards and just one direction to go towards and then decision-making wouldn't be a problem.

On second thought, I'd rather be the kalesa driver or the horse jockey (same concept, para mas sosyal). Because making decisions is living life. And I'm not exactly excited about the idea of horseshoes welded onto my would-be hooves and having a carrots and oats diet for as long as I live. ;p

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Fickle! Fickle!

Just when I thought that I actually had some direction infused into the beginnings of my career, I come across my dream org's website. One link led to another and I suddenly found myself the newest UN Online Volunteer. A few clicks after I'm viewing the DSWD website and getting its contact numbers. I am actually going to call them tomorrow to ask if they have any job openings for someone like me. Oh yes. So much for my resolve to definitely enter the corporate world and make lots of money. And for saying that I would never consider working for the government. And for dismissing Lags' and Arvon's jokes about me and DSWD. I am eating my own words. And it's confusing my "brainbuds".

Well, nothing's certain. Gloria freezed government hiring till July. I haven't even taken the Civil Service Exam. And I just found out that hardcore social work required passing a licensure exam. This will probably end up under my formerly viable list of career path options (which include becoming a living asia researcher, a national geographic photographer, and a jet-setter, that is, if jet-setting would be considered a career). But I shall try tomorrow and after that, get a feel of it.

That is basically how I'm tackling "career pathing" -- I think of something I'd suppose I'd like doing, research a bit about it, and then try to FEEL if it would work out for me. This system and I are compatible with each other. I've actually a lot about the things I like and don't like through it. For example, I discovered that I could possibly work for a bank, but it depends on the type of work offered. And I confirmed that I am definitely technical-computer-work-averse. So no database administration or any other techy stuff whatsoever because it'll just be utter torture. It's a trial-and-error process but at least I get to eliminate stale options and seek out more of the type of jobs that felt... RIGHT. I trust that this system of mine, however vague and seemingly unorganzied, will eventually lead me to something that'll be perfect for everything I've set out to do. Yep, everything shall fall perfectly into place. In the meantime, I shall continue FEELING it all out.